Deniying ...

1st December 2008
7:56 PM (Jakarta time)

I'm deniying it...
I don't want to admit it...
I'm too afraid to admit it...
'cause if I admit it I won't be able to get out from it...

I think it's too late now...
I'm back with what I used to feel...
stupid hope...
makes me suffer alone...
I tried get out of it so hard...
and I made it...
but now...
the feeling comes back and makes me suffer
pleasure guilty

keeps and always hurting my heart...

Oh Gosh...
help me get out from this feeling...
it's killing me...
every second...
every minute...
every breath I breathe...